"Yawny at the Apocalypse" Andrew Bird


It's weird- you can attach meaning and so much emotion to a song, even when the song has nothing to do with that meaning or emotion. This is especially true when the song is instrumental, like this one. I can remember one time having this song come on while driving with Aft. She probably didn't even notice the song (it could easily just be in the background for her), but at that same time I was overflowing with emotion.

I think of two things when this song comes on:
First is 2007. That year was one of the hardest and most rewarding years of my life. This song, for some reason, reminds me of the hard part. The struggle to redefine who you are and who you can become. The heartache of losing friends because you're trying to do what's right and sometimes that involves painful change. Most of all, the need to continuously remind myself that this will all be worth it, this is what I want.

Second is death. Or maybe not just death, but what I'll call "transitioning to the next part of existence". I think it's because there are elements to this song that are reminiscent of a song from the movie Gladiator that plays when he dies and meets his family in the next life. I think of his hand brushing the field along his waist, with his body appearing so relaxed and calm. I can see a connection with this and my earlier thought. As if the choices I made at that point in my life (really really hard choices, mind you) are so directly connected to that transition I will one day make, that perhaps 2007 will be most pressing on my mind. Like a moment of clarity, I'll see what it was all for.